Here I am lying in the middle of my bed typing away my thoughts as the rain pours its heart out outside. I cannot help by smile whenever I think about the little things that you do. Your corny-ness, your cute little smile and your voice that makes my heart beat twice as much.
I know this is cringe-worthy and so not me. Hahaha!!
It took awhile for me to adjust to the new me. Haha! The 'believer in love' me. (Still adjusting. HAHA)
I used to love the idea of love, but never really believed that I'd ever feel it. Ever.
Days went by and I made a decision to give up on love. They say this and that and almost everyone would have something to say but in my mind and in my heart I was certain, love was not for me.
The only love I know is the unconditional love that Jesus gave us when He died on the cross for each and everyone of us. This love I have felt so strongly in my lifetime and continue to feel until now. I trusted His love to be my only love because I was afraid to get hurt. I was afraid to cry and feel stupid again. In Him I know my heart is safe.
I read from somewhere that this lady prayed to God to take the human desire to love away from her if that's what His plan is for her. I was 29 at that time (last year lang. HAHAHA) and that began to sink into me. So I started praying that. I would normally third wheel my friends (Thank you friends! Hahaha) and I'd witness how beautiful love is for them. Some of them would ask me about it from time to time, so I began telling them about my prayer. I did get some telling off from some of them but that didn't stop me from praying it because I was certain, again, that love was not for me.
And then I met you. (So cheesy HAHAHA or as we both call it "Mais")
You who in my doubtfulness, introduces me to your friends.
You who in my saddest moments, makes me smile.
You who in my craziest, becomes crazy with me.
You who in times I didn't ask, still made time despite your busyness.
You whom I bully and bullies me back.
You who complements me when I'm on my period and I feel like crap.
You who accepted me in my lack.
You who tames my coffee addiction, though sometimes I can be a bit stubborn. :P
You who shares every little achievement with me.
You who makes me feel like "us" is already a mini family.
You who argues with me but tells me to still send our daily morning devotional despite us having one of those "fights''.
You who talks about problems with me and talks about problems to me.
You who taught me how to adjust because I got used to doing things my way. Haha :P
You who ends our day with prayer though you'd often ask me to lead the prayer. :P
You who in my prayer to find a person who loves God, found me. <3
Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. 5 It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. 6 Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. 7 It always protects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.
