Me before You

    I think I should stop watching movies from now on. My bank account is not liking it anymore. Haha! A few days ago, when Me before you was released in NZ, my housemate and I were talking about watching it. Sylvia Park's only 10 minutes away thus without hesitation, we got her laptop and booked our tickets online! (So much for "spur of the moment decisions". Haha!)

      I got the book and it has been lounging around my room for the past few weeks now (Since I have this habit of comparing books and movies) and a much as I wanted to flick to the next few pages that I've read, I just didn't have the time. (Reasons reasons. Haha!) Okay so, when we got to the cinema (It was my first time to be at Hyots so don't judge. Haha!), I was amazed on how roomy the seat was. If you're ever planning on asking your girl out on a date, then this place is a winner. Haha. :P

        Back to the movie. (I get sidetracked so easily. Jeez.) When the people were coming in, here I am sitting there smiling to myself thinking, this is the type of movie wherein guys would be forced to watch it just to avoid further arguments with ze girlfriend. Haha! As the movie was starting, I braced myself for what is about to happen. Tears and more tears and plus a little bit more. Haha!

     The movie got me hooked and surprisingly it didn't make me feel sleepy especially in the beginning. Hihi. I commend the writer for writing such brilliant set of lines which enabled most of the audience to laugh. Weird enough, I loved Louisa Clark's fashion sense in this movie. Fashion does depend on who and how that person wears such clothes. I'm going to go deeper about the movie so if you don't want any spoilers, stop reading from this point on. Haha!

     The story for me was Nicholas Sparks-ish since it involves one person being tragically paralysed for some reason and then fate brings the leading lady closer to the leading man, and the rest is history.  And by history I meant someone has to die and someone has to move on. This movie taught me something about selfish and selfless kind of love. Isn't it bizarre (I learned to use this word in a sentence and not just in a title of a song due to my Kiwi workmates. Haha!) how one can actually be selfish and self-lessssss at the same time?

      Will, as arrogant as he got after what has happened to him and after his girlfriend married his best friend (AWWWW), is the type of guy that you would actually be annoyed with at first and then your heart will begin to soften up as you get to know him and your heart softens up a little bit more as he shares to no one else but you and then days later you'd realise that... that you're starting to want to make him smile. That he's the only person in your life at that time who actually believed in your capacity to do something more out of your life that just live it. This is what happened to Louisa Clark, which was at that time, in a relationship with someone that was just too entered on himself and his wants that he forgets the importance of making Lou one of his top priorities. 

       Do you actually believe that some people are actually meant to be a part of your lives even for a split second? That every encounter you have and no matter how fast that encounter may be, you can see fate unfolding? (ANO DAAAAW? Hahaha) 

      It wasn't a coincidence when the cafe closed and Louisa had to look for a job to support her family and that she eventually ended sitting in front of Will's mom thinking it was Will's father that she was going to look after. You know how life goes. As the movie was progressing (Char), I've caught a few lines (#whatswithmeandmovielines) that kindaaaa made me feel kilig (Dear auto correct, FYI, kilig is now part of the English dictionary. Haha!). Here are a few:

1. When Will/Louisa (not sure. haha) said, " Can I take you somewhere?" 

2. When (this I'm sure) Will said, "You are pretty much everything that makes me want to get up in the morning." ----Awww moment. 'Kay fine. Haha.

3. When Will said, "You are something else." ----I hope he meant it in a good way! Haha. 

4. "You can't change when the people can't. What do you do? You love them anyway."---SOOO hard to do this one.

5. Will: "Will you stay?" ----As if he was asking himself to stay by starting of with "Will". Haha. :P Waley!

     Louise: "For as long as you want me to."

Favourite: When you feel sad, just live. 

        Overall, this movie seemed a bit cliche but the type of cliche that makes you want to believe that  by being selfish and by leaving the person you love behind is not all the time a bad thing. Most of the time when you're the person leaving you'd feel like it's just the right thing to do at that time. And as for the person being left behind, you may not understand how such a selfish decision can be so unselfish, but you just have to accept it. 

        After watching Me before You what stuck to me was each of us has to find that need to become our own selves before being with someone for "the rest of our lives". In some cases, finding "you" enables you to find that "you" that you're looking for. Buuttt always remember, "Walang forever". Hahaha! Jokkeeeeee. Bye loves!

     Oh, P.S. Their first date with Louisa wearing that red dress and the look on Will's face when he saw her was one for the books! :) and P.S.S.S.S.sss. Believe in serendipity. In finding things that are not looked for. :)

-Gennin

Shamless blog post for a God who was NEVER ashamed of me

          After crying my heart out last Sunday at church (Trust me when God speaks to you through the Holy Spirit you'll know what I mean. Haha!), mind you it's so hard when nobody's there to make you feel better thus I miss Rosca. Haha!, I felt this need to blog about the only "person" who stood by me when everyone else's presence is not there.

        I've always been a mama's girl and I'm proud to say that. I've kinda gotten used to having my mom around me and moving out of the country last year was hard because of the bond that I have with my mom. I feel homesick from time to time but when I realised that I have a God who never leaves my side, I begin to feel at peace with where I'm at right now. God gives me the feeling of comfort more than the feeling that my mom gives me whenever she's around or nearby. God makes me feel this unexplainable peace in my heart that surprisingly is nothing compared to any feeling that I get from anyone around me.

       The theme at church this week or month is all about knowledge, understanding and wisdom. Lately, I don't know how to explain this but even if I'm happy, I'm sort of not deep inside? Sometimes I'd call it hormones but when it lasts for more that a week I'd call it emptiness of the heart. I'm not quite sure about what I'm talking about here actually. Haha! I'm still trying to figure it out myself. Anyway, I believe that what I'm feeling now is because of that lack of connection with God lately. Do you know how I pray every morning, every night or wherever I am I talk to God but I kind of feel like I'm not 100% into Him? 

       Last Sunday, I was talking to God about everything that I was feeling within that week and that I feel dumb at work since some people would make you feel that way and then the pastor goes and says all the right things which makes me believe that God is telling me something through other people. One recent testimony I have is that earlier that Sunday I was searching for my bus timetable since I don't know how to get home after the 6:30pm service, haha, at that moment when the timetable showed up on my phone's screen, I received a text message from my housemate asking me if I wanted to go home with her that night. See how God works? I don't believe that it's a coincidence because the timing was so perfect that no coincidence could ever top that. :)

     I also learned that talking about your blessings is not boasting about it because everything that you've received was not done but given to you by God and that you may use those experiences to inspire and lead people towards God and not make yourself any different from them. As a christian (Well, can't wait to be baptised soon! Hihi), I'm not perfect. I make mistakes in a day to day basis. I get angry. I curse at times (Sorry Lord). I do stuff that seems more "worldly" instead of "Godly". It's not easy to admit that but you know what, those bad things that you've done in the past and has done yesterday, two days ago, a week ago... They can become an inspiration for you to use in the future to lead people to God. 

I used to wonder why those who are sexually abused, battered, those who did drugs, those who cheated on their husbands and wives, those who had the worst experience that you can think of, are the ones giving the best talk about Jesus and what He can do. The answer is, that's our God. He calls us and when we respond to Him, He restores us from our brokenness and makes us feel like a whole new person. Of course, the world around us wouldn't believe that and would judge us immediately but through all that, when we cling to God, things that people say around us just doesn't matter anymore. God's words become our anchor and His words shields us from all the judgements of the world. 

So when people don't like you, refuse to be with you and isolates you because you love God, then you're not with the right people and you're better of without them. If people makes you feel less worthy to be with them just because you refuse to dwell on what is earthly and decide to focus on what you can do for God, then God is removing them from your life for a reason. I'm not the type of person who easily gives up on people. I'd usually stand by even if I get hurt because I want to prove to them that there is goodness in each of their hearts. Sometimes I do get tired and sometimes I'd get told off. Haha! But oh well, I'll just continue to be that way and who knows, one day, a miracle might happen and they'd actually ask about God and come to church. :) 

My top 5 LSS songs for Winter 2016

          I've always loved music. When I was a kid I used to sing and one time I even forced mom to buy me a radio just so I could record the music that are being played. Haha! Years later when apple introduced iPods, I'd spend most of my time figuring out how to download music and transfer it into the iPod that was given to me by my Tito (That I forgot the name! Sorry. Haha!) When I finally did, I'd constantly update my iPod with what's new on the radio.

   Lately, I've been I've been losing sleep.. No, not that. Haha! Lately, I've had quite a few favourites from what is being played on the radio and I'd like to share 5 of them with you. I know most of you guys would know these songs since they're being played like twice in a day on the radio and you might have heard most of these being hummed, sang and played in the supermarket, bus stop or wherever. So here goes my top 5 LSS songs!!

Don't Let me Down by Chainsmokers

    I find the chorus of this song really catchy. Did you realise how much they repeated "I need you" and "Don't let me down" in this song? Who wouldn't get LSS to that? Haha! I bet that those two phrases occupy most of the lyrics which is not too baaaad though cuz the beat matches the lyrics and don't you just wanna turn up the volume and dance to this song? I mean common. Kidding! Haha! :P

This is what you came for by Calvin Harris

   Yoooouuu-oh Yooou-ooh oooh. Haha! Lyrics wise, pure nonsense. The beat on the other hand makes you wanna jump on your toes and point to somebody you know and belt out "Youuuuuu-oh youuuuu-oh oh" Haha! 

Ghost by Ella Henderson

    I wish I can sort of rap like Ella (First name basis! Haha! Close? Haha!). It fascinates me to hear a lady rap and sing the lyrics really quick. The only rap I learned was from a song called 'Stupid Love' from the Philippines. Haha! :P I like how she was able to incorporate the word 'prayer' to the lyrics of the song but the "devil" part is kinda creepy. Makes me think twice about listening to this song. Haha! Oh and one more thing! Don't you just love the title? So unique. Haha! :P

Wild things by Alessia Cara

   Find me where the wild things are? Haha! I'm not really into wild things. I'm more on the average to moderate level only. Haha! This song just shows how rebellious one can be. Some would call it rebellious others would call it having fun but I'd call it living Life. But of course with a few limits that you'd impose on yourself and actually follow :)

Time of our lives-Pitbull and Ne-yo

    It's Ne-yo. Enough said. Haha! and Pitbull sure can rap! (Jealous :( ) I've been staying for a few nights in the city these past 2 weekends and I reckon (Words that you learn from Kiwi co-workers. Haha!) that this song best describes my past two weekends with my friends! Staying in the suburbs has its downside though. Makes you feel "EMO" at times. Haha!

Unfailing by Life Worship

       After all the upbeat music, sometimes it's just nice to play something calm and comforting. I downloaded some of Life worship's song on iTunes and this is by far my favourite. I love how it reminds me of God's goodness and unfailing love before I go to bed at night. Without the inventor, no one could've invented music right? One pastor once said, every music that's created is beautiful. Sometimes the "devil" just comes in the picture and turns it into something that's not pleasing to God. So let's just be careful on what we listen to because most of the time what we see and hear determines what's in our hearts. :)

So there you go. My top 5 playlist for that's getting me through the first part of winter! Any suggestions as to what song I should add to my playlist? :) Feel free to comment below! 

Bye loves!

xoxo, Gennin 

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