This is my third blog draft and if I don't get to publish this, I am heading home right this instant. Haha! I wrote a totally sad blog which I didn't finish but to tell you briefly about it, I was planning on writing a short story. (Would you be interested to read it? Let me know!) Sometimes, it's time for you to really pursue what you're passionate to do. Most of the time, when the knowledge disappears, it's passion that's whats keeping us going.
Lately, I have been having dilemmas about my life and I won't share it here because if you really want to know you'll message me to find out. :P
Have you ever felt lost and you're in that moment of your life that you feel like it's not the perfect time to be lost because the clock is ticking and you yourself are aging?
Well, well, well....
I am writing this to inspire someone today. I may not have a lot of blog readers but if you are one and you would like to continue to be one, thank you. <3 Just like what my little cousin would often say, "You make my heart super happy." Hihi.
Writing is something that I wanted to take up subjects in when I was still in Uni (but never got to). I may not be the best but I believe that in the heart and sincerity of what you write, people would learn more about the inner you and as you write, you will be surprised on how deep your inner self can get. Another thing that you might not know is that I was awarded Best in Computer at some point in my high school life. Haha! It was a time when we were developing websites and doing marquees and all that. It took one teacher that I really look up to, to believe in me. Since then, I also had this drive to study I.T. but people kept telling me that it's complicated and it's not what I'm good at you already know what those nega trolls are saying. Haha! :P
You might think that I couldn't make up my mind and that's the reason why I'm quite lost right now. If you're going to ask me, that's not personally true to me. Yes, as girls we can be fickle as to what we really want but if you let your heart do the talking, you would already know the answer.
In this challenge that I have now, I am so overwhelmed of how God is still hanging on to me. I was in the verge of letting go and giving it all up when God reminded me today (at a seminar, I know, I was supposed to be listening. haha! Don't worry, I was but my attention span lasts for only 15mins. The breaks were helpful. :P), anyway, God reminded me that I was not alone. He literally had to put that on a Powerpoint presentation just so I'd remember. Haha!
God knows what my thoughts are on a day to day basis and though my face on Facebook and Instagram looks happy, there are a lot of mixed emotions going on inside of me that I cannot confide to anyone else but Him. I had to take this time off after the seminar and head on to the library because I needed the time to think and clear my head and just take in His goodness.
So, can I encourage you today before I end this, wherever you are in this stage of your life, to:
- Begin with a prayer of praise.
- Present your dilemma.
- Cry if you need to.
- and then let it go.
Through it all, Believe. Believe that while you're waiting to learn something new or while you're waiting for something, someone or whatever it is that you are waiting on, you are going through a process of being good and better on the outside because there is something supernatural that's working within you that is unexplainable. You don't need to justify God to other people. Let your life and experience speak. If you fear that you'll end up disappointed or people would look down on you if you do, then you don't yet fully realise the capacity of what God can do to your life in a span of even a split second. "Have faith" is a cliche statement but mind you, if you do, you'll do great things. <3
Alright, I need to go now or else I'll freeze in the cold. :P Bye!
xoxo, Gennin
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